A Long Overdue Adoption Update

Crocheted Baby Shoes | https://www.roseclearfield.com

I am way overdue to write an update about our current state with the adoption process. I gave an update back in November about the home study and haven’t written anything else since. For those who have asked, thank you. For those of you who keep praying for us, thank you even more.

In my last update, I gave a brief outline of our trying to have kids timeline and what we’d completed thus far for the home study. If you’re looking for those details, please refer back to that post. By the time I wrote that update, we’d actually completed the vast majority of our home study. The third (and final) home visit went smoothly, and we didn’t have any more issues getting our fingerprints approved. We were able to get everything wrapped up in early 2017.

I pushed really hard to get our profile book and other materials to a finished state, so we could have them shown in January. There were a few expectant moms looking at profiles very early in 2017, and we were able to get our materials to a finished enough state that moms could view them. But they weren’t really done. And I reached a point where I’d spent so much time on them, I couldn’t be objective about them anymore.

So I put them aside and haven’t come back to them. It sounds awful, I know, seeing as how it’s late April now. Why would we spend all of this time and money on the home study and then not just get our profile materials done? First, I am still completely comfortable having moms view them in their current state. Second, as I’ve mentioned before, Jake and I are taking a big trip for our 10-year wedding anniversary in the near future. If we were able to adopt before then, we wouldn’t be able to go on our trip. And we wouldn’t be able to take a trip like this again for years. At this point, we’re pretty set on going on the trip.

Believe me, it’s devastating to be waiting even longer to pursue this process in full. But timing in life never seems to work out exactly how you’d expect. Also, while getting the profile materials finished won’t be a huge time commitment, getting our story out online and providing regular updates will be a lot of work. I already have a Facebook page. I already help manage two other Facebook pages. Spending a few months getting my head around creating and regularly updating yet another Facebook page has been a good thing. I’ll be in a much better state to start that project when we get back from our trip than I would have been back in January.

Cloth Diapers | https://www.roseclearfield.com

I do have a few projects and other adoption-related happenings to share that I didn’t mention or have made progress on since my last adoption update. The first is that someone I only know as an acquaintance through a women’s group gave me a huge bag of cloth diapers. The entire bag pictured above is filled with diapers. I have been on the fence about cloth diapers for years but have always said I would give it a try if I didn’t have to invest in all of the diapers and other supplies myself. I know that multiple moms have used many of these diapers and just want to keep passing them along. But I also know these diapers aren’t cheap and really appreciate the generosity of such a large gift, especially from someone I don’t even really know.

Nursery Bassinet with LittleMoosebyEliza Custom Skirt | https://www.roseclearfield.com

Nursery Bassinet with LittleMoosebyEliza Custom Skirt | https://www.roseclearfield.com

A neighbor very generously donated a bassinet with a mattress and a bouncy seat. The bassinet is in beautiful condition but really needed a new skirt. Bassinet skirts are ridiculously elaborate and expensive. I finally found an Etsy seller who was willing to make a custom skirt for a fraction of the price, which is what I should have done in the first place. I used LittleMoosebyLiza and could not be happier with the result. The fabric I chose is in this listing.

Nursery Dresser Before and After | https://www.roseclearfield.com

Nursery Dresser | https://www.roseclearfield.com

I shared a “before” picture of the dresser I got through a Facebook buy/sell group in my last update. I overhauled the entire piece with new paint and hardware and put down new contact paper in the drawers. It’s amazing how much paint can transform a piece. I exclusively used paint I already had on hand. The main frame color is Baby Chick, which has been my neutral for our house. The drawer colors are Lemonade, Prairie Grass, Noel, and French Coast (all from True Value). I got the lamp at Target and picked up the little wooden animals from Crate and Barrel at Christmas for just a couple of dollars each.

FlorandFawn Prints | https://www.roseclearfield.com

Animal Photos for Nursery | https://www.roseclearfield.com

Minted Giveaway Goodies - Nursery Art | https://www.roseclearfield.com

I’ve also made a lot of progress with the art in the nursery. I purchased FlorandFawn prints (bear | fawn | fox) for my turquoise frames. I love them so much. I filled a couple of Michaels collage frames I already had on hand with 4×6 animal photos from the Milwaukee County Zoo (printed from SmugMug). When I won a Minted giveaway right before Christmas, I picked up a few prints for the nursery. You can read more about them in my giveaway winnings post. All of these pieces are now up on the walls.

DIY Colorful Nursery Wall Art Rainbow Circle Art in Progress | https://www.roseclearfield.com

In my last update, I mentioned picking up some large canvases on sale at Michaels for the space over the crib. I bought those canvases in late 2016 and am finally getting around to using them this month. I’ll be sharing more about the process for making this art later in the spring or early this summer. The pieces I’m making are time-consuming and not like anything I’ve done before, so I don’t really know exactly how long they’ll take.

Rocker | https://www.roseclearfield.com

When I wrote the last update, it was just before we got the rocker. It’s a standard piece from Babies ‘R Us. I have been trying to do so much for the nursery as affordably as possible. But there are a few full price items we’ve splurged on that I don’t even feel guilty about buying, and the rocker is one of them. I have wanted a comfortable chair my entire adult life. I will use this rocker whether or not we ever have kids.

Finally, it’s sweet that the word everyone keeps using to describe adoption and what we’re going through right now is “exciting.” Exciting would have been having my second kid four years ago without fertility treatments or adoption and being four years past this process. Exciting would have been having my kids during Jake’s medical residency like basically everyone else I knew then and getting support from those spouses. Getting to go through with an adoption will be exciting, if we get to that point. Spending $8,000 (just on the home study) with no guarantee of completing even one adoption (let alone two because spoiler alert, we’d like more than one kid) isn’t exactly exciting. It’s expensive and scary and just the beginning of another emotional (and pretty lonely) rollercoaster.

When you’re talking to people considering or in the process of adoption, please think about your word choice carefully. I know that people mean well. But hearing the word “exciting” and the never ending stories about adoption that people can’t seem to stop sharing (yep, so glad your cousin I’ve never met adopted a baby ten years ago) makes me want to scream.

I’ll be writing another adoption update sometime early this summer when I get the new Facebook page up and running, and I create a section for the blog dedicated to adoption and sharing our story.

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More adoption-related posts:

Adoption Home Study in Progress | https://www.roseclearfield.com

Adoption Home Study in Progress

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16 thoughts on “A Long Overdue Adoption Update”

  1. Rose, this really opened my eyes to the adoption process and I will certainly be careful about my word choice from now on. I do hope things move forward for you soon with everything!

  2. I don’t know if I missed the post about you beginning the adoption process or, perhaps, I started reading your blog after you first posted about it. Regardless, this is, I’m sure, a stressful and crazy emotional time in your life. And I’m sure it is exponentially harder when you have no idea what the outcome may be.

    I’ll be thinking of you and your family over the next few months. I know how challenging this can be. It is so damn frustrating because there are SO many kids who need to be in good homes. So many kids who need the love and support that they are not getting in their current situation. I know that the process must be thorough and they need to ensure kids end up in good homes. Still, I heard the average time a child will spend in foster care is THREE years.
    Statistics that I’m sure you already know. And statistics that I’m sure make you feel really angry. But just know that things will fall into place the way they are supposed to. They always do. Just have faith.

  3. I’m sorry if it’s something you’ve mentioned before or that’s typically common knowledge, but all the home study and background check things you’ve done – are they just ‘valid’ in-state for you, or will you be looking interstate? I’m wondering because I know several people who would probably want to help share your story once you get your page going after vacation, if that would be helpful.

    1. We are starting our search in state but are definitely open to out of state opportunities as well. The legal process is different for in-state vs. out-of-state. Honestly, until we cross that bridge, it’s not something I’m going to research extensively. But please feel free to share our story with anyone and everyone who is interested in sharing it, once we have some more materials available. You never know where you may meet a potential connection for an adoption. Thanks! 🙂

  4. Rose- we adopted internationally from Uganda. I know the wait is grueling!!! Your nursery looks gorgeous. I know a special child will be so blessed by your family!!!

  5. I read your post about coping with the wait for kids too, and oh, my heart can relate. Your room for the baby is beautiful. I hope that the one you’ve been preparing for will come soon, I hope the wait is not too much longer. We had a miscarriage in October, and an adoption that seemed sure fell through at the last minute at the beginning of the year. I know what you mean about feeling like you can’t even plan your own life. If I knew it was going to be another 3 years or something like that before we could have a kid, I’d be okay with that, I could live with that, it’s the not knowing whether it’s next month or never that is difficult.

    1. I’m so sorry to hear that, Rachel. I will be keeping you and your husband in my prayers. I definitely agree that not knowing the time frame is so difficult. I would give a lot to know what the next few years will look like for us.

  6. Thank you for sharing your story. My husband and I are just entering the world of infertility treatment, and it worries me a lot to think about the what-ifs and alternatives and such. I knew adoption was involved and time consuming, but I don’t think I realized just how much time it takes and how much waiting is involved. Wow – I can see how it would wear on you. I hope things will keep moving forward for you!
    Your nursery looks beautiful, though. That dresser is gorgeous in the colors you chose! And I love love love the woodland animals bassinet skirt!

    1. I’m so sorry to hear that, Lisa. I’ll be keeping you and your husband in my prayers as you embark on this journey. Unfortunately, even a straightforward, successful adoption that goes fairly quickly is still quite complex and involves months of waiting. There’s also an emotional component to the process that no one can really prepare you for in full. Thanks, I really appreciate the feedback on the nursery!

  7. Thank you for sharing your journey. The nursery is absolutely gorgeous. The bassinet is so cute! I love the fabric. Good luck with everything!

  8. Thank you for sharing your story! I can’t imagine how much work is put in, and how stressful it is. I pray that things go smoothly, and that when you get back from your trip, everything happens quickly.

    Also I can’t wait to see what you do with the canvases!

  9. Thank you Rose for the update! I think we are all waiting with great anticipation as you are.
    What great finds from Etsy Shops! Love the colors of the dresser you repainted.
    I did note that everything has a “blue” theme! Although you don’t know any results yet, I am thinking you are hoping for a little boy!
    When I was taking care of my grandson for his first year, as well as a little girl Ava who was 10 mos. older, I found a 2nd hand Shop with all Baby items. Many still had tags on them. I was able to purchase a walker, baby clothes (many with tags still on them for $1); a pottery barn carpet for $15; lots of toys, baby books, etc. So when the time comes, check in your area for one of these Shops. I still have one of my son’s room still set up as a nursery, just in case another grandchild might appear!!!
    Many prayers – you will be a great Mom!

    1. Thanks for the tip about shopping second hand! We’ve already gotten a few items second hand and will continue to keep are eyes open for deals. I’m hoping to get passed down items from friends as well, as many friends have already had babies.

      You aren’t the first person who’s commented on the color scheme. I’m not hoping for one gender over the other, I’m just not big on super girly themes.

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